So a good friend of mine came over yesterday and we talked Trek and rewatched the special features (and watched Devil in the Dark... again. I like how that episode is standard viewing). Then we switched over to SPN (Changing Channels can change anyone's view on SPN I find) and we babbled for a while until she had to leave. It was good. It was odd. I realized how... out of touch I was getting with people, how awkward I feel inside. I am still that way somewhat on the internet. Sometimes, when people talk to me... I'm not sure what to say. There are a few people whom I can say just about anything and it works and I'm eternally grateful for that. Sometimes, I wonder... what do people look for in me? When people ask me to app for them, what drives that? Is it respect or something else? I do find the booking system that I've (well... other people really. I found myself going along with it) put in place is in surprising demand. I am touched, but mostly I'm just amused and confused.
I've been replaying Apollo Justice and I love Apollo. He is a geniune lawyer. He's smart! He knows the law! This is what he wants to do. He's not lovesick and dense (don't get me wrong, I love Phoenix Wright, but sometimes I just... cannot believe the man is a lawyer). And it's a joy to play Apollo Justice because he is believable (his backstory is not believable though, but I can take what I can get) and he's smart and for a seasoned player of lawyergames, it's good to know that he keeps up with your pace. I've been breezing through the game, but it's also the one I've replayed the most.
I've been very selfish lately. I will start curbing it. But I'm glad I could notice it and instead of going on a self-pity fest, I can do something about it. I've got therapy again next week and I think I have a lot to say. I still don't have a job and I don't have money, and that part of me is still bothered because everyone around me is so giving and I feel... I never give back. Money, why must you be an issue? I know nobody is materialistic enough, but I feel I should.. give back something, but nothing feels like it's enough. Hm. The best thing to do is ask, I suppose.
But it is good to know, despite all my setbacks... I have come a long way.
Also shameless pimping. I've been hooked on 8tracks. Go listen to my FSTs!
I've been replaying Apollo Justice and I love Apollo. He is a geniune lawyer. He's smart! He knows the law! This is what he wants to do. He's not lovesick and dense (don't get me wrong, I love Phoenix Wright, but sometimes I just... cannot believe the man is a lawyer). And it's a joy to play Apollo Justice because he is believable (his backstory is not believable though, but I can take what I can get) and he's smart and for a seasoned player of lawyergames, it's good to know that he keeps up with your pace. I've been breezing through the game, but it's also the one I've replayed the most.
I've been very selfish lately. I will start curbing it. But I'm glad I could notice it and instead of going on a self-pity fest, I can do something about it. I've got therapy again next week and I think I have a lot to say. I still don't have a job and I don't have money, and that part of me is still bothered because everyone around me is so giving and I feel... I never give back. Money, why must you be an issue? I know nobody is materialistic enough, but I feel I should.. give back something, but nothing feels like it's enough. Hm. The best thing to do is ask, I suppose.
But it is good to know, despite all my setbacks... I have come a long way.
Also shameless pimping. I've been hooked on 8tracks. Go listen to my FSTs!