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I want a magical time travelling device that will allow me to relive my weekends and somehow magically get my activity for twelve characters (for the record, I do pull it off amply! It's just.. tiring!). Having a set limit on my computer to do X amount of things is starting to wear me down in a bad way, but this weekend felt less stressful (so I say now anyway!!). Also the joys of having new canon, of seeing Sam and Dean and Cas on screen has really lifted my mood (er, well. AS WELL AS SPN CAN... LIFT MOODS IN GENERAL) and I've been spamming people left, right and centre over how much I love Dean, my forever dorrrrrk. And the new developments canon has been giving me has been living me a bit amazed (though I'm glad I called the LoTR thing before the episode aired. POINTS FOR ME). CFUD has now pretty much settled into my forever place and I haven't had a bad day with it in a while which is good! I still get the feeling I'm overextending myself or seeming brutish on the internet, but I guess I'll never know?

I thiiiiiiink right now, my problem is micro. Gosh, has it really been a year? And while I flagrantly ignore having sex in micro blah blah, I still enjoy playing there. I just find that my overall level of play has... dropped! Like I find myself making more typos or being too lax with the line between IC and OOC. It could be that the place is finally rubbing off me and that somewhat bothers me on an intrinsic level or I just... don't care anymore. Or I want to start with something fresh. I kinda feel bad for the people I play with, especially Reyson's castmates because I don't play enough or I just tag here and there and I'm not updated and in the zone!! Or I don't know, but I feel a little bad regardless.

nnnngh this post is kinda useless. OH WELL.

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To be honest, I have a lot of problems with Micro but I can ignore them as long as I get to play with certain people I love playing with because they're awesome. Please tell me if there's anything I can do to help, you know I would be more than willing to do it right?

But maybe you shouldn't worry too much about your activity, because it could be that you just need to relax for a while? But if you're tired of the game or the characters and it's really bothering you on an intrinsic level, hmm maybe talking about it in comments is not the best idea ever but you can talk to me about it if you want? I love the relationships we have there, but if playing there is bothering you or anything, then maybe you should take a break? I don't know, because if the thing is that you don't mind our threads or the ones you have, but you do mind tagging new things or players or whatever else, then that's a different story. I'll stop babbling now BUT YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU.

Yeah, that's my relationship too! PLAY WITH CERTAIN PEOPLE. sob.

I also love our threads but I don't want to be that person who just plays with these people. I dunno, I need to work at it.

What makes it worse for me is that I avoid a certain pair of players and I don't feel guilty about it anymore. I DON'T KNOW, I try to play with more people and in a way it works but I end up playing around the same . . . circle, and yeah I think you know and stuff. sob

Yeah, I completely understand, that's why I try to fix it, but considering I don't have a lot of time I don't force myself either. I don't know if I'm making sense or not. But what

telcontar is very valid?

YOU CAN TALK TO ME YOU KNOW.

Y-Yeah I can imagine that.

Well. We'll see.

Hmm, my offer is still up honey. [hugs]

Once you've got the activity you'll be able to chill out a bit. I always find that stressful, but I don't get mine out as much in general.

Maybe give Micro a break? Or think about which characters you enjoy playing the most there and cut the remainder loose. Of course I know dropping isn't something you do lightly, but if it feels stagnant it might be the way to go.

Well, I think I've gotten mine for this month already. And I'll have to start compiling activity for the next round.

Mmm possibly.

You can reuse some of those links though.

Anyway, your choice and all. Since I know dick about Micro. :Dd

That's the idea. I guess it's just wearing down on me a little.

Micro is like. That hooker who is so easy it should not be so easy.

I kind of was there exactly. I apped somewhere new, in a type of game I'd never played before (Sabra) and this made me realize that I didn't really care too much about some of my characters the way I used to. I didn't have that zeal I once had. So I dropped half my characters in CFUD (well, eventually). I had initially thought that man, I guess I'm kind of not caring about CFUD anymore but no, I stuck it out and now my CFUD play is back on the rise, even though I have even less time to play than when I played less. Heck, I'm even thinking about apping more CFUD characters now that I've cut the fat.

That was my problem, I think, last year? But now CFUD has very much settled itself for me and idk, my variety in characters makes up for all my iffy feelings I used to have.