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There are some things I feel I should address.

I have a guilt complex. I know it's there. It's gotten better! But it's there, nevertheless. When I was younger to the point of now in my life, my father would tell me how stupid I was and how incompetent I was and it stuck. He would always take it back later or make some joke about it later, a joke that probably helped to make me feel better.

Now I wonder how truly damaging it is. Like I said, I'm getting better. I don't view as everything as my fault first. I'm working at looking at both views and gosh guys it is hard. It feels so much easier to just put yourself down for it, doesn't it? But don't. Don't do it. It's difficult, I know. It's easier just to say it's your fault and believe it completely to the point. But that's not how it should work.

I think... no, now I know, the world is made of the equal. That the person next to me or on the internet is no less equal to me than I am to them. And I'm going to keep every option open for me, to say, "Yes, you're right, but what if you're wrong?" and just think about it. You might still be wrong, it might drive the nail home and make it worst but I think it needs to be said.

I'm wrong many times over. I've hurt people many times over. But just taking that consideration that maybe, just maybe, I'm not wrong all over?

It's a big step.