maybe if I listen to enough backstreet boys I'll feel better

[quixotic]

I am unreasonably annoyed! The unreasonable part is unreasonable and I'm aware of that, but somehow that doesn't really help that queasy part of my stomach where I feel sick all over because in the back of my mind, I feel more responsible than anyone else. And sometimes I wonder if I am truly capable of making good decisions at all. Or are all my decisions some kind of parody, they only seem good and fun and they are as fleeting as the day?

Hopefully this will resolve itself nicely tomorrow. Hopefully.

Right now though, I'm still unreasonably annoyed.

The other is; a fan was complaining about leaked episodes and advised that others should "wait for the rest of the world". I live in Asia. The rest of the world? The world you're thinking about, no doubt? Is the West and only that. Did it ever occur to you that there are people outside the United states who (shockingly) watch the same things you do? That they don't have that opportunity to wait? Considering how laid back I can be about certain issues and someone who has to "wait" and still end up buying my canons and whatnot, that particularly needled me. I'm not one to get angry, but this piled on a bad mood and just unnecessarily pissed me off. Your luxury is not our luxury.

It's a good thing you listened. God help you if you hadn't.

Nnnngh guys, I'm so angry with all this pent up aggression and I am just. Plain not happy with myself right now.

Comments

[captain [inksome.com]]

superdickery! well, whatever, i think you're great. i mean, i ... don't actually know what the epic drama of the moment is but in my experience your decisions have been fine ♥.

also hey the second half of the post sorta reminds me, i found out i am maybe going back to SE Asia this year (orrrr early next year.) so I will squee excitedly at you if that gets confirmed and beg to meetup. assuming my luck holds & this isn't scheduled right over the top of the Qld meetup.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

It's not so much epic drama as a player got critted over an IC relationship we're having! And well, having talked to it with other people, I realize what unnerved me the most is that I was being used as an example :/

IF YOU DO WE MUST MOST DEFINITELY MEET UP and you can totally live at my place whenever you want WE ARE COOL PEOPLE HERE.

[captain [inksome.com]]

ahhh. i think any crit in relation to relationships is ridiculous, since in reality romance changes people, feelings are inexplicable, and partnerships frequently unlikely. like, critting quality of someone's playing might be valid, but i've always felt you're uh... "technically sound"? ;) obviously i don't know the exact circumstances, & it's none of my business, but crit that involves you in any way can be upsetting. i hope you don't take it too much to heart and... idk, all you can do is learn from it. but if you question previous choices, don't think that means you have to doubt future ones.

WHEEEE (i totally typoed that as WHYYYYY and only caught it at the last minute, how awkward would that have been!!) i was talking to my Mother, being like "only drawback to doing the Malaysia thing is I don't know anyone in that part of the worl-- OH WAIT YES I DO. >8D". & i will keep that in mind. ♥

[namarie [inksome.com]]

I'll probably do some good ole re-evaluation, but I don't feel shaky myself, thankfully. Though if this mood keeps up, I'll probably throw up a "PLEASE LOVE ME GUYYYYYZ" post. But thank you for that. Being technically sound is a great thing to hear today ♥~

We're in Singapore BUT MALAYSIA IS LIKE A DRIVE AWAY seriously. We can. Totally catch the bus.

[captain [inksome.com]]

no i will catch the bus! to you! in singapore! i did actually look that up before making the original comment, i am just a tool. |Db kuala lumpur is a generalized home-base, because i've been there before, but i want to go to a lot of different countries.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Yaaaaaaaaay.

You'll get to meet the tiny Singapore Borg.

[captain [inksome.com]]

who else is in this borg!

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Toph (Larsa, Merry, Ramza and Koganei)
Hiruma (Dakki, Naruse, Mei and Jin-hyuk)
Frau (Chikage)

and Me!!!

[captain [inksome.com]]

omg you really are a borg!

that's really exciting. sdhgsdkj i need to stop thinking like it's confirmed, but every awesome cfudder over the count of you is kind of like a bonus.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Seeing us in person will only confirm what is the TRUTH!! We kinda think like a borg and app during the same times too.

I'M REALLY EXCITED TOO best news I've heard today/

[neverending [inksome.com]]

You probably managed to talk to more people, but still I hope you are feeling better about the first issue, hon. You make good decisions and you're an amazing player, so please even if I know it's just natural to doubt yourself or feel responsible, you are a great person and rper. I love threading with you, for one. But I feel you, which is why I hope you're feeling better.

[neverending [inksome.com]]

I hit 'post comment' before finishing it! So here is the rest.

I feel you so hard on the second part of your post. It always makes me mad when people assume everyone lives in the United States on the internet. I won't go too out topic, but ugh, I really can't stand it when they say those things. Because obviously we're privileged and we can get everything like they do! [flops on]

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Hahaha thank you for that. I try to square out my moments of self-doubt when it comes to RPing.

YEAH I CAN SEE THIS ISSUE. Normally I don't have to deal with it but ugh, this latest fandom.

[neverending [inksome.com]]

Hey, I bother you with my own self-doubt sometimes, so I think it's fair. But you're amazing, okay?

Yeah uh, sometimes fandom is a bit stupid.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Only if you acknowledge your own awesomeness. ;)

lesiiigh.

[neverending [inksome.com]]

. . . That is cheating, you know. sob Fine, okay. ._.

HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Of course. Who says I play by the rules?

MUCH BETTER.

[neverending [inksome.com]]

Damn yooouuu. ;;

I'M GLAD, HON.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

♥~~

[neverending [inksome.com]]

♥ ♥~~

[telcontar [inksome.com]]

Hopefully you feel better about it today after sleeping on it (having read your thread above, this is guesstimation). I've been in a similar situation before, though it wasn't crit so much as being told of someone else's concerns, and I think the best you can do on your end is to make sure you're happy with what YOU'RE doing. I don't think you should feel bad, because in the end we're doing this for fun. We can't please everyone else, but you have to put yourself first in the pleasing stakes because, you know. There's no everyone else without you first. ♥

Also lol the leaked episodes thing. I still can't believe people would actually complain about something like that. FOR A TV SHOW.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

Ultimately, yes. That's what I'm keeping in mind. ♥

[telcontar [inksome.com]]

I went to go find an appropriate macro but apparently I saved them all on the other computer. So this is all I have.



Though I guess it works nicely with RP-related things.

[telcontar [inksome.com]]

Or it would if the link worked. ONE SECOND.

[telcontar [inksome.com]]

[namarie [inksome.com]]

That is so amazingly adorable.

[telcontar [inksome.com]]

Indeed it is.

[namarie [inksome.com]]

♥~