maybe if I listen to enough backstreet boys I'll feel better

[quixotic]

I am unreasonably annoyed! The unreasonable part is unreasonable and I'm aware of that, but somehow that doesn't really help that queasy part of my stomach where I feel sick all over because in the back of my mind, I feel more responsible than anyone else. And sometimes I wonder if I am truly capable of making good decisions at all. Or are all my decisions some kind of parody, they only seem good and fun and they are as fleeting as the day?

Hopefully this will resolve itself nicely tomorrow. Hopefully.

Right now though, I'm still unreasonably annoyed.

The other is; a fan was complaining about leaked episodes and advised that others should "wait for the rest of the world". I live in Asia. The rest of the world? The world you're thinking about, no doubt? Is the West and only that. Did it ever occur to you that there are people outside the United states who (shockingly) watch the same things you do? That they don't have that opportunity to wait? Considering how laid back I can be about certain issues and someone who has to "wait" and still end up buying my canons and whatnot, that particularly needled me. I'm not one to get angry, but this piled on a bad mood and just unnecessarily pissed me off. Your luxury is not our luxury.

It's a good thing you listened. God help you if you hadn't.

Nnnngh guys, I'm so angry with all this pent up aggression and I am just. Plain not happy with myself right now.

Comments

[captain [inksome.com]]

superdickery! well, whatever, i think you're great. i mean, i ... don't actually know what the epic drama of the moment is but in my experience your decisions have been fine ♥.

also hey the second half of the post sorta reminds me, i found out i am maybe going back to SE Asia this year (orrrr early next year.) so I will squee excitedly at you if that gets confirmed and beg to meetup. assuming my luck holds & this isn't scheduled right over the top of the Qld meetup.

[neverending [inksome.com]]

You probably managed to talk to more people, but still I hope you are feeling better about the first issue, hon. You make good decisions and you're an amazing player, so please even if I know it's just natural to doubt yourself or feel responsible, you are a great person and rper. I love threading with you, for one. But I feel you, which is why I hope you're feeling better.

[telcontar [inksome.com]]

Hopefully you feel better about it today after sleeping on it (having read your thread above, this is guesstimation). I've been in a similar situation before, though it wasn't crit so much as being told of someone else's concerns, and I think the best you can do on your end is to make sure you're happy with what YOU'RE doing. I don't think you should feel bad, because in the end we're doing this for fun. We can't please everyone else, but you have to put yourself first in the pleasing stakes because, you know. There's no everyone else without you first. ♥

Also lol the leaked episodes thing. I still can't believe people would actually complain about something like that. FOR A TV SHOW.