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There's a pit of unsettled feelings in my stomach. Things I've left unsaid, things I will not say... they come and they pile themselves and I feel sick of every new day to come. This is one depressing post after another and why can't I talk about it?

At this rate, even talking hurts like a festering wound.

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. . . Hm, honey.

I'm a cool customer.

I'm getting the feeling that not talking about this is hurting you more right now.

Ahhh. Well.

Hmm. [cuddles]

[cuddles] Wow total mood swing.

I'm not going to pressure you or push you, but I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

I moodswing like crazy. Maybe I am bipolar.

Honey, so do I. A lot. Like . . . right now. I don't know if it means you're bipolar, but. I love you.

Do you still need sleep? You better nap today.

I slept less than 4 hours, so maybe I really should. I'm being more uh, empathetic than usual. But that's probably why.

Well just remember.

AND IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

WILL ALWAYS

LOVE

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU

H-Honey, I feel it's really unfair that you're kinda cheering me up right now.

BUT I LOVE YOU TOO.

. . . How many times have I said that today?

I CAN TOTALLY CHEER YOU ON TOO. If you feel bad, I'll cheer you on no matter what and you'd do the same.

I LOST COUNT.

WELL, YES, BUT I FAILED TO DO THE SAME FOR YOU. You know I'd do the same thing.

THE THINGS YOU MAKE ME SAY.

You didn't fail. It's a very tough thing to get me to open up. But I would talk to you about it when the time comes. Most definitely.

HUSH YOU LOVE IT.

Hmm, okay. I don't mind waiting. And I don't necessarily think you should tell me, either. I mean, I would like you to tell me, yes, but I feel like that it's more important for you to maybe open up to someone even if it isn't me? I hope that made sense.

I DO. YOU'RE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME.

Opening up for me... with anyone, in fact, is hard. TAKES ME AGES!! Slow progress to slow.

SO ARE YOU.

You haven't talked to anyone yet? But yeah, I can tell. I don't think it's bad, just that it takes you more time. Slow progress is fine. My point still stands, though, and I think you know I'm here for you whenever you need me.

I'M GLAD, IT WOULD MAKE ME SAD IF THAT WEREN'T THE CASE.

Nooo, not particularly and especially not on this. It can be a tetchy area for people and I don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable on my account.

DON'T BE SILLY ILU.

I can't talk for anyone, but for me . . . Even if that's the case, I'd rather feel uncomfortable and be there for you. If I could, I would hug you for real, but my words would have to be enough for now. But yes, I can relate to the feeling of not wanting to make anyone uncomfortable. Hm. I still keep feeling like you need to open up to someone, yeah. Still, like I said, I can wait if you choose to do that with me.

HEY, I CAN BE INSECURE. ILU2.

Then we'll see. It's a matter of time really.

DON'T BE.

Hmm, all right then. ♥

OKAY. Sleep well, honey.

♥

YOU NAP TOO SOMETIME.

♥

I'M GOING TO NAP RIGHT NOW, BECAUSE I'M NOT OBVIOUS. Sweet dreams.

Would it help at all if you like... wrote all these things into a word doc or something? Not to show to anyone, but just to get it out in some way.

Well, I talked to someone and that helped. I feel a lot better now, thankfully.

Then that's good and probably more useful. ♥

Thanks for the suggestion, dearheart ♥

Suggestions are what I'm best at :x

Very true. ♥

^ I'm glad you feel better. Though I noticed really late :(

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